I say my psychiatrist on Friday and, you guessed it, more medication changes! I'm weary but still a tad hopeful that things will be better with new meds, so here we go again.
There is a long term plan to get me to just Lamictal and Lexapro, and then maybe just Lamictal. To get there, I am currently tapering off Risperidone and will be off it around the 18th. At the same time I am tapering up on Lamictal; the lowest dose for two weeks and then double for two weeks and so on, I won't be up to the dose she's aiming for for at least 5 weeks I think she said. Sometime in there we're gonna be tapering off Lithium as well. It seems like I just don't tolerate it very well what with the blurred vision spells and cotton brain from time to time and the shakes, so I'll be glad to have all that go away. She thinks the Risperidone is causing my constipation issues so I'm hoping that goes away as well!
So, lots of changes. I hope that this drug does something for me. I'm generally not a "druggie" person and like to avoid medication when possible, so having some not work just makes me believe even less in the power of pharmaceuticals and want to stop experimenting altogether. I'm not sure what happily medicated looks or feels like, but these drugs have to work for somebody.... right?
In other news, I've been struggling with anxiety and been resisting taking Klonopin for it. I took one last night and this morning and it did seem to help, so I think I need to get over my anti-drug-ness and just medicate already. Saturday morning I was so nauseated from anxiety I thought I was gonna ralph! And we all know I've had enough of that...
On top of all these pills I've been trying to get back into my supplement regime as an effort to work on my self esteem and feel better about my health overall. I know not taking my vitamin D is a bad, bad thing for me! I don't need any more depressive factors in my life! It's difficult to keep up with the supplements, especially since I need to eat or I'll get sick from them and I don't like eating lately.
Well. There's a chunk of my life lately. The pilly, confusing, frustrating part.
OH! Bonus, my thyroid is back in check and we're just tweaking things, so that's a relief at least. Still have to do labs pretty frequently but I'll take a needle over crazy ass thyroid levels any day ;)