I'm sad today. Been thinking of my Aunt Sally, wondering about my friends from the hospital, worrying about my future and getting all the details together that I want to get together. I am trying to remind myself to take things slow and give myself a chance to work back up to life but I feel pressure and stress and sadness.
I'm going to try and not think it out too much, going to try and keep on keepin' on.
I believe I have one ECT appointment next week. It seems like a really big difference so I want to call them up and verify that it's only one appointment and that I'm not missing something. Also meeting with a new therapist, hoping that goes well.
Sigh. I don't want to dwell on the negative but I think I need to give some credit to the fact that I was in a really bad place not that long ago and that it's only reasonable to take a little while to get my shit back together. So I'm not back in the gym 3x or more every week, so I'm not meeting up with other moms and walking the trail again yet. I've been through some shit and it's gonna take a little while for me to get back on the right track.
Little by little. Being gentle and kind with myself is a good thing! I'll find my happier place somewhere soon sometime!
This banana is just gonna keep swimming... that's a fun visual. ;)