It's been quite a year. 2016 wasn't an easy one, that's for sure!
**I've plugged in some random photo highlights that may or may not correlate to my text, but I hope you enjoy them!
For a big part of the year I wasn't able to be alone with Baby Bananaface. It was too overwhelming or didn't feel safe.
For a while the hubster confiscated my tweezers because I was having a hard time controlling my urges to self harm.
In the spring I tried to kill myself.
Another chunk of my year was dedicated to TMS treatments multiple times a week. Throughout it all I've been on and off more drugs than I can name trying to find a mood stabilizer that'll work for me. To top it off I had those seizures and got diagnosed with a seizure disorder and got a prescription goin' for that...
There's been a lot between those headliners, including countless tears and hugs and kisses and fears shared between me and the hubster. Nights and days where I didn't feel safe. When I wasn't sure if I'd make it to the next day. When I didn't believe that I could ever find happiness or stability again.
Thankfully, things are changing. I have come far enough now that I can see the light at the end of the tunnel. I have hope again. I'm still working on the confidence part but my faith is certainly growing and despite the hiccups along the way I haven't given up.
So much has changed... I've come so far this year.
I'm driving again-even taking BB to and from daycare. I'm making meals and able to safely use my tweezers. I'm socializing and going to the gym nearly everyday. I'm even thinking about finding part-time work soon.
I'm glad to put this year behind me and I hope to have more positive memories to stir up this time next year :o)
Don't really remember doing resolutions much but I think I will be concentrating on keeping up with maintaining my health and moving forward.
I wish everyone a wonderful 2017 and thank you all for sharing 2016 with me.
Lastly, let's hear a big cheer for baby steps! Hoorah!