The hubster and I celebrated 4 years of marriage this week. I managed to surprise him by hiding a small bouquet of flowers from him overnight (under the bathroom sink, clever, I know) and awaking early to set them out by his lappy with a card. He was quite surprised and pleased although a little chagrined that he didn't have my card ready for me to reciprocate at that moment. He made up for it quite handily with an amazing card and note as well as flowers.
For special plans we decided a family dinner out was the pace for this year and ended up going to a fancy-ish Chinese place at the mall. I'm blanking on the name but we definitely enjoyed ourselves and because it's a big chain they were totally down with having a toddler flinging low mein around and there were highchairs to spare!
Our anniversary brought up feelings, not just of love and gratitude but sadness and awe at what our last year has involved. It's been a tough haul. This time last year I was between hospitalizations and while I definitely don't feel 100% now I can say that I'm feeling a bit more functional than I did then.
It's hard to think of what we've been through. It brings up such intense feelings. Sadness. Guilt. Anger. I suppose a better way would be to think of it as all that we've overcome and how well we're doing compared to then and how much things can keep improving instead of dwelling on the negative, but that's just how I'm wired for now. I'm trying, it's just a hard mental habit to break!
Our anniversary is always at the beginning of the giant wave of holiday festiveness. While we're not Halloween people, it is the gateway of sorts to the holiday season and it marks the beginning of the "holiday season" when we see the candy and decorations at the local stores. We are definitely looking forward to Thanksgiving and the Christmas festivities even though we're not spooky types ;o)
Costco already has the coupons out for holiday cards and it got me thinking about how much I enjoy sending mail out even though we don't get much personal mail back (ads and coupons and stuff, yeah, personal letters or cards not so much).
If there is anyone out there in the blogosphere that also appreciates good ole snail mail and is interested in receiving one of our holiday cards please send me a message so I can add you to the mailing list! I hear from some of y'all more frequently than I do my own family so I wouldn't mind sending out some more cards if there are those who would appreciate it :o) If ya wanna just keep things on the blogging level I can appreciate that too, no worries.
As for the overall, we are plugging along. Dips and wavers and little victories included. I've been able to actually relax and watch some TV this week which may sound trivial but feels like a big accomplishment since I have such a difficult time relaxing and focusing lately-but I can do it!
Baby steps forward and baby steps back but baby steps adding up to onward and upward and that's what counts.
Happy weekends to all <3