Wednesday, October 8, 2025

Well shit.

I did it. I made a therapy appointment. I think I've been backsliding for some time with this new gig and it's gotten to where I can't amble on anymore without addressing it. I'm disappointed. I did so well last winter, but we're gearing up for a tough one this year now. I graduated therapy last summer. Well, I guess not for long. I hope it isn't awkward chit chat and I can feel like I'm actually doing something... it had devolved the last time around.

Work was so weird today. Perhaps it had to do with having an interview this morning. It was for an attendance assistant spot at a middle school. I didn't realize exactly how badly I wanted it until the interview was over. I realized that I wanted to be back in the parking lot again, not just driving off from an interview spot that I'll never visit ever again. 

Anyways, work. It's been drama. More than usual since the boss decided to sell the payroll part of the company and axe three people essentially. Well, he didn't really tell them until it was absolutely necessary. And then one of them quit... so the other one had a chance at replacing them (up until that point she was just going to be let go or so we assume, because, once again, he didn't tell anyone anything). It's a mess!

With all that it was a bummed out, giving up type of attitude with a twist of quirky "who gives a fuck anymore?" between the gals in the office. The other assistant and I danced and sang at certain parts of the day. We sent someone to fetch lunch when her sardines did not go over well. It was a good day, with a horrible backsplash of anxiety and dread and sadness related to losing our compatriots from payroll. 

That's a third of the office gone in a poof. The one payroll person that quit did so on Friday when I was outta town with the hubs and BB (it was the hubs's first marathon!) so I didn't get to say goodbye but I did help make his birthday card for today. What a sucky birthday week...

I'm all over the place it feels. Life is a bit of up in the air right now. Shucks. I wish I could focus a bit more, but I can't and my hands are cracking and bleeding again for some reason so I'm going to get some lotion and hit the hay. 

Hope everyone is enjoying the autumn or spring. I do love the fall :o)