Update and Weird Dream

This weekend went over pretty well although yesterday I was purty exhausted.

Got to yoga today and put down a wad of cash for an 8-class punch card which afterwards I reckoned would've been cheaper if I'd just become a member of the club. I always get anxiety over "memberships." This club is non-profit and the membership gets you discounts for classes and in the end pans out to just be cheaper than non-member prices-but the Hannah-fear struck and I just handed over the extra cash to avoid any "strings."

Anywho-as for my status...

I think I'm going to up my dosage. I haven't been suicidal and I've been more stable, but I'm still depressed and unable to get out of the house very easily. I get more tired in the evening and get to sleep easier but have a tough time getting going in the morning and want to see if a higher dose can give me more of a kick in the pants.

In other health-related news, my IUD experiment is going pretty well. I had  light period last week but overall less bleeding and I went further between periods. So we'll see what develops, some women lose their periods entirely while on Mirena (wouldn't that be nice!).

I had a very weird dream last night that involved looking for a new apartment and then a strange walk alongside a lake with my dad. Sometimes we were walking, sometimes we were floating and there were tons of porcupines and skunks along the path.

At one point I picked up some skunk "poop" which was something like a jalapeno pepper filled with poo. I squeezed out the poo and rubbed it on a rock or tree and then took off a rubber glove to save the outer-poo-shell to give to my fiance.

I have no idea what that is about.

On the way back we saw lots of birds.Some were little but there were two large birds, one white crane with red feathers on its crown and then a larger predatory bird with grey and black streaks. That bird was a mixture of heron and hawk and had a large yellow eye that was behind a yellow false-eye, like those butterflies with eyes on their wings.

http://www.butterflyutopia.com/taenaris_catops.html

It was in the water and small bluebird-Stellar's Jay type birds were eating crusties from the side of the real eye. I remember saying that it reminded me of a raptor and it was a very intimidating bird-like it was a man eater bird!

Anyways, we made it past the scary bird and I had some garbage I had picked up in one hand and the skunk "poop" in the other when it started throbbing and pulsating and I dropped it partway in the water. I plucked it out of the water and threw it onto the path and the "poop" was bulging and stretching the rubber glove.

Soon there were a couple of long jack rabbit's legs stretching out of the wad of glove and poo and the poop casing transformed in to a grey, leggy rabbit!

Then I woke up. But it was a very detailed, awkward dream and I have no idea what my mind was getting at.  Any guesses???