This afternoon was acupuncture and I cried a lot. The acupuncturist recommended I see a different specialist for something called "Foot Zone Therapy." She described the therapy as something like reflexology but said that this lady has some special healing skills that go beyond any certain specialty.
I felt like a failure. Like I'd flunked out of acupuncture.
My acupuncturist had to reiterate that this was just a recommendation and that she would continue seeing me, she just thinks that I need a little something extra to make a break through and get unstuck.
Just a little much for me on a day when I've felt lost and hopeless already.
One more pothole after so many doozies.
In other news, I was down south on Sunday visiting the family and Dad for Father's Day. It went pretty well overall but sucked emotionally.
I was teased a lot and felt more and more lonely as the day went on. So miserable feeling like I need support and then feeling isolated from my family, the ones that are supposed to be there for me no matter what.
It's been hard. And as much as I need tender loving care, I just feel more resentment and disgust with myself.
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