The First Days

 My first couple days of work have been... meh. Which is exactly what the hubster told me to aim for. Haven't set my expectations too high and have been cutting myself some slack. I still feel like I haven't engaged the kids very much but I reassure myself that the first week of school is always a little odd and not quite structured.

So I'm not in agony and I'm not loving it. I had some pretty bad anxiety the night of my first day-which seemed odd since I had the next day off. But I was shaking so bad I thought we were having a tremor! I was in bed under my weighted blanket, trying to doze but really just sitting there ruminating and it all got to be so much I was quaking. 

Another big set of spaces and awkward pauses before typing... I'm not sure what to share because it feels so uneventful. Some kids chatting. Phone use issues. Kids turning in work and then kids not even starting. School stuff. I feel the most pressure around some upcoming assessments. My "mentor" (she always says it with quotes around the word) says not to worry much and that we all know that a lot of kids won't be at level. 

Tomorrow is BB's first day of kindergarten. He's part-time, going in the AM and then to daycare for lunch and the afternoon. The hubs has printed off a "First Day of Kindergarten" paper and mounted it to cardboard so I'll try to share that photo!

For now, it's off to pick up BB after I try to salvage a broken nail. I really wasn't typing that hard, I swear...