This post is part of my first year doing the A to Z Challenge and I happen to be writing under the theme Gratitude: The Things That Keep Me Alive. This is a relevant theme for me as I am struggling with postpartum depression, and also have diagnosed anxiety and bipolar II (just to let you know what's going on with me-it might be pertinent as you read the post below). Thank you for stopping by and reading my post!
B is for Blogger because blogging... wow, blogging. I haven't really sat down and thought about this before! This is kind of a big deal!
B is for Blogger because blogging is a big part of my life and a great part of my life. Blogging is more than just an outlet, more than just a way to express myself or practice writing. Blogger is one of the few places I actually feel safe (even as I type that it feels totally ridiculous but also still true) and one of the few places I have friends that I actually believe to be my friends (that might sound weird but it's something that I've struggled with for a long time and it's an important fact).
Many moons ago when I started blogging I was skeptical and only loosely aware of how the whole thing worked and definitely only mildly aware of Blogger functioned. The hubster was a huge part of me starting blogging. Without his encouragement, I might never have started a blog and without his ongoing support I certainly wouldn't still be blogging today. The lovely readers and fellow bloggers that leave comments and encourage me are also a big part of why I'm still blogging, and in that way, why I'm even partaking in this A to Z Challenge at all!
I'm so grateful for this tool, this outlet, this safe place in my life. I'm grateful for Blogger itself (despite all the functional, "are you kidding me?" hiccups and such) but I'm also grateful for the opportunities that Blogger has presented to me and all the unique people, stories, pictures, and conversations that I've been able to experience because of Blogger.
There are days when I feel self conscious, when I'm afraid to click "Publish" or too ashamed, embarrassed, or fearful to leave a comment or say what I really think or feel, but more often than not I get past those feelings and I get to publish, I get to write, I get to partake, I get to socialize and for me that is a big, honkin' deal. This gal don't get out much, folks, so the socializing outlet Blogger presents is important! It's also a huge part of my recovery and maintaining wellness... a huge part. Even when I'm just typing/talking to the wall it helps because I can be myself a whole lot more through blogging than I can through Facebook or even real life.
So even though it means admitting my anti-social, awkward, self-conscious, foibles-I am typing it to the heavens:
THANK GOODNESS FOR BLOGGER!