Thursday, March 17, 2016

From My Imagination

These are two blips from inside my head that I felt that writing & sharing. Although they reflect negative aspects of my thinking they also reflect some positive changes and self defense!

I drop a couple f-bombs, FYI :o)

Conversation 1

"I hate you. I don't know why my brother ever married you. You are ruining his life. Worst mistake of his life marrying you! And for you both to have a kid together! Oh my God!"

"Your brother happened to have married someone with Bipolar II Disorder. He knew I had it before we got married and he married me anyways. He decides to help me stay alive, almost everyday he has to make a decision not to walk away, to help me manage this disease. You don't know me and what I go through. You can't understand where I'm coming from or why I'm so disjointed or confusing. You have no idea what having a baby did to me because I have this disease. I don't care what you say or what you think and I don't care if I never see you again because you have never brought happiness into our lives as far as I can tell and the way you treat your brother makes me sick and furious. Fuck you!"

Conversation 2

"I hate you! Your vacuuming woke me up. It was so loud and disruptive, don't you understand that you live above someone?"

"Are you fucking kidding me? A) It's past 11:00 AM and I waited until double-digits to vacuum or even start laundry out of consideration for my neighbors, especially my downstairs one! B) Do you have any clue what a big deal it is that I even vacuumed at all!? Just for me to be out of bed is a big deal, doing anything remotely 'house-cleany' is a major accomplishment. I have been so sick lately, you have no clue. You can just go fuck yourself for all I care, I am proud of my vacuuming and I don't give a rat's ass what you think. And learn how to friggin' park a car! Jeesh!"

PS Got this off FB and really enjoyed, literally LOL!


  1. Negative? Both of those conversations are wonderful. Self defence, without apologising for being alive. Yay you.
    And I love, love, love the gem you found on FB.

    1. Glad you enjoyed the FB gem :) and thank you for your positive support! Helps encourage me along the path to believing the "no apologies for being alive" bit!


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